Being a slight control freak, I've always thought that the worst thing that could happen to me would be to lose my sight.
Its getting dressed that bothers me. Or rather, having Daz pick out my outfits for me. I couldn't trust him. I'd always feel I was leaving the house dressed in some strange combination of clothes. I'd have to buy every thing in black just to be safe.
And I experienced this exact thing yesterday when I went on a shopping road trip with the oldies from the hostel. I went off with a woman who was there to buy a new pair of shoes. She was diagnosed with macular degeneration twelve years ago and since then her sight has gradually deteriorated until now she is almost totally blind. I asked her what she could see and she said she can see lights above shop doors but not read what the sign says. I asked her if she could see the people about her and she said no – just shapes.
So we went into the shoe shop and I'd describe the shoes to her and she'd feel them, feel the heel, put them right up to her face. She wanted a dressy pair. So we picked out a few pairs for her to try on and she found a pair that felt nice. The we had the following conversation about 500 times throughout the day.
so they look dressy?
and they're black?
and they're the same size as my old ones?
and they're a pair?
lol – yes
and they're hush puppies?
and they're black?
But I didn't mind because I knew I'd be exactly the same. And I probably still wouldn't believe they were black.
So check your macular – it's a cruel disease, mainly because there's no cure.
This simple screening test is used to assess the macula (the center of the retina). The Amsler Grid consists of evenly spaced horizontal and vertical lines printed on black or white paper. A small dot is located in the center of the grid for fixation. While staring at the dot, the patient looks for wavy lines and missing areas of the grid. This test is especially helpful for monitoring vision at home.
The doctor is especially interested in the following when testing vision with the Amsler Grid:
Are you able to see the corners and sides of the square?
Do you see any wavy lines?
Are there any holes or missing areas?
If the lines of grid do not appear straight and parallel or there are missing areas, the doctor will examine the back of the eye (macula) very closely. This test is frequently given to patients for home use to monitor macular degeneration. When using the test at home, notify the doctor if any changes in the appearance of the Amsler Grid are detected.